Quite Eventful

It’s been quite eventful lately. Of course a certain someone is playing the innocent Christian Caucasian girl… Claiming to be sooooo unique and original. Accusing others for pressuring conformity on her. But here’s the funny thing, she’s copying me. She’s suddenly an Avon rep, which is pretty similar to a Scentsy Consultant. Not only that, but on Twitter she is posting quotes, to be more specific, Tim Fargo quotes. Which is something I do. So she claims to be moving on with her life, but is mimicking my every move. Suddenly she’s going to donate clothes…So yeah, this copying thing,  it’s annoying. Especially when you don’t want to be associated with that copy cat. 

I see a copy cat as a mindless sheep that can’t think for themselves. They have no creativity. No ideas. Ya know, fuckin brain dead.

Yet she’s accusing people for pressuring conformity on her?? First of all, she’s a white Caucasian girl, Wtf does she know about conformity?? In Western society, she’s pretty privileged considering she’s blonde, white, and has blue eyes. She doesn’t have to fear for her people going missing or being murdered on a regular basis. Genocide still exists, and people of colour are the targets. So yeah, that dumbass can shut the fuck up!!

And speaking of dumb, just that accusation is dumb, considering she’s copying me. But boo hoo boo hoo. She’s losing her identity. Then be yourself and fuck off!

Which reminds me, why would a person stay subscribed to someone’s blog when clearly the writer wants nothing to do with them? Ahem, psycho!! Clearly has some mental obsessive issues. You would  think the average person would unfollow or unsubsribe. That would make sense. But this person has no sense. Obviously. Not even commonsense as she claims.

So I’ll share some memes that kinda made me giggle regarding this particular situation. 

Anyways… I have more to write… besides her b.s. So considering she’s doing this during a tough time in my life, yeah, she’s just being a bitch. 

What I mean by tough time is… not too long ago, I got the news that my foster dad died. Sure I was never really accepted as a daughter of his own, but like my foster mom said; ” He’s the only dad I knew.” Even if he wasn’t the greatest. He did get me into college, he did take us on vacations and I got to see many places across Canada, and a bit in the U.S. 

He was a severe diabetic that didn’t take care of himself. He didn’t change his diet. So yeah, despite all the warnings…he basically killed himself for the love of food. It does make me upset and angry. But I think we all knew it would happen eventually. As sad as that is. We knew this time would come. 

So I am waiting to hear from family. Waiting to hear when the funeral will be. It will be weird reconnecting with a family I pushed away for years, but everything happens for a reason. So yeah, it will be weird. Just go and see how it goes. 

Other than that, I got into a wonderful feud with my man’s ex and her boyfriend. I guess when my man was helping a friend move, his ex approached him all like; ” Hiiiiiii…. is this your truck?” When my man told her to fuck off. She said ” I thought things were good now.” Of coarse when I messaged her she denies this. She has a boyfriend, but every time she sees my man, she practically throws herself at him. So yeah. I told her boyfriend that his girlfriend is a whore and he needs to get her to leave my man alone. My man has moved on, and so should she. Geez! During all this, they were calling me dumb, retarded, and the boyfriend was even threatening to hurt my partner. But whatever; the exes boyfriend is a fool. I mean if this ex has a history of cheating on my man, than she’d probably cheat on this new boyfriend too. I guess she was hoping my man would cheat too. But nope. Each time he shoots her down. So nyeh! 😝

Anyways, that’s my life lately. There’s been a death in the family and I’m dealing with stupid fuckin people that do not understand the meaning of the words; “Fuck off.” 

I mean, if Melishee ain’t stalking me, she’s getting her friends to. I guess they too need to get a life. Wow. 

Anyways, R.I.P Ken Shannon. Peace and love – Pooks

Desperate for my Attention, eh?

Clearly someone wants my attention. Normally I wouldn’t give the time of day, but enough is enough. 

Yeah, I’m talking about Melishee. 

I think after seeing the blog post she wrote about me ” A taste of her own medicine”, and deleted, and is now denying she wrote that horrible shit about me and my family. No she doesn’t deserve my friendship. Attack me, fine. Bring my baby up, and my partner?? Yeah, you stepped over an unforgivable line. 

I’m not her friend anymore, and it’s like ever since she’s been doing the woe is me. Poor me poor me. People take advantage of me bullshit. 

I never asked her for shit. Matter of fact, I didn’t like her buying me shit because it meant “you owe her” in her little world. Yet nobody owes her shit. Her friendship comes with a price tag. I believe I noticed that years ago…but for some fucked up reason I gave her another chance. Oh right. I felt bad for her, because her friends at the time we’re saying they didn’t like her, they only tolerated her. Yeah, now I understand them.

Anyways, I have a baby now. Taking care of a baby is a lot of work. I don’t need to be taking care of an unmedicated psychopath that should be on seroquil on top of that. Let alone listening to her bitch and moan about her supposed problems. I got pretty tired of her yo yo relationship. I guess the same applies for her now ex fiance. Can’t blame him. After awhile you got to say, enough is enough.

She bitches that Fanshawe College doesn’t have the support for her mental health. Well duh!! She’s clinically diagnosed as a psychopath. So they wouldn’t have the professionals for her there. She’s seeking the wrong places for help. It’s either go to your doctor and get back on seroquil, or try Parkwood Hospital. 

Yeah, she’s being a bit of a copy cat when it comes to refusing to be put on meds. I however, just have spouts of anxiety and depression. That’s pretty normal. I’m not clinically or officially a psychopath. Theres a diff. Besides, there’s ways to cope with anxiety and depression. I believe I have found ways that work for me. 
But yeah, the way she’s whining that I’m no longer her friend. I think it’s about time she moves on. I don’t see an unmedicated psychopath as safe to have around my family. And the way she stalks me online, more so since I’m not her friend is a bit alarming. She is the one that tweeted ” If only murder wasn’t a crime.” years ago when we got into a fallout. Yup. That was about me. So yeah, I have every right to be concerned about my safety.

I mean,  she just can’t stop talking about me. Obsessed much? 

The only thing I think she cares about is the number of followers I have on Twitter. She wants that. But maybe she doesn’t have that because her attitude stinks. 

Also, she expects shit to be handed to her on a silver platter. Such as tuition money. You know what my partner did to get a Post Secondary education? He worked to pay for it, just like many others. I know someone that had 2 jobs just to get through school.So yeah, she can get up off her lazy ass and work. That is… if she can hold onto a job without her “love life” interfering. She often creates her own pathetic drama. Smh.

Also, if she didn’t waste her money on WWE merchandise, and put that towards saving up for this tuition she supposedly wants, maybe she wouldnt need to be a bum online using Go Fund Me. So think twice before you put money towards that go fund me site of hers. It will probably just go towards “Official Merchandise” or trips out of town. I mean that’s what she blows her OW money on. In her infamous words; “Tax payers money hard at work!”

But yeah, when it comes to friends. I think I want to surround myself with other families. Positive people. Hard working people. They say your 5 closest friends reflect and shape who you are, so yeah. I don’t want Melishee to have any influence on me. I think you can see why. 

But I guess if she’s not harassing me, she’s harassing political parties. HA! Maybe she’ll get herself arrested before she smartens up. 

Yeah, she’s got a lot of growing up to do. I thought she would by now. But nope. Same bullshit. Perhaps she won’t. She can talk, and write mature, but her actions and behavior prove otherwise. They kinda contridict what she says in her blog. Lol Smh. 

Anyways, She wanted my attention. She got it. This is my way of responding and saying ” Go fuck yourself and get a life Melly!” I have better more important people that actually deserve my attention. You however, “not so much.” 

Hope you enjoyed the read! Those obsessive fans yo. Geez. Welcome to my life! HAHA! Peace and love! – Pooks

Something New

Hi again!! 

K. So the last time I blogged was September 9th. So yeah, it’s been a week. Time for some updates. 

Last weekend my eldest daughter gave me a letter, and it said in her own hand writing that she wanted to live here. That was sweet. 

Monday… I don’t even remember. Must’ve been a busy day at home with my baby. Some days just fly by. However, on Tuesday, I took my baby to her first mom and Baby group called Beginning with Babies. Anyways, it’s a program that is run by Childreach at the Cherryhill Library. I thought my baby would make strange, but she was actually pretty loud and seemed to enjoy herself. So we will be going back again. 

I figured it was time to get my baby socialized, plus we get pretty bored at home all the time, and this gives me a chance to interact with other mother’s, and my baby gets to play with other babies. That and CAS did make a suggestion to look into groups and stuff. Which I have. At first I was feeling kind of antisocial, but after going there, I am glad I went. It was kind of refreshing to be around women that I could relate to when it comes to parenting. 

At Beginning with Babies, we do a social circle, ya know? The babies play, the Mama’s talk. Then we sing songs, blow bubbles…so on and so forth. It was awesome. 

I have also been looking into other Childreach programs and events, and wouldn’t mind participating in the Stroller Walk and Talk at Gibbons Park, as well as the Wild Child at Medway Forest. I would like to do those before those programs end and it gets too cold out. I think it would be a good way to network and make new friends possibly. 

Thanks to the Northwest London Resource Centre, they were the ones that pointed me in the direction of Sherwood Forest Library, and it was through the Sherwood Forest Library that I discovered these Childreach programs. So thanks to the Sherwood Forest Library as well. 

Other than that, the week has been flying by. It’s me and my baby at home. I try to get some chores done during the day…some days are easier than others. My baby has been very cuddley lately. So I think she could be teething again. She’d cuddle with me all day if she could. Lol. 

Anyways, what else? The only other major thing is that I got a job. I am an Escentcial Consultant for Scentsy. It was kind of spontaneous, but I think it’s worth a try. Besides, who doesn’t like things that smell pretty? 

It’s funny because I was originally going to go pick up a pair of runners for my partner from a woman, whom is now my advisor, that I had interacted with on Facebook through a Buy Nothing group. Anyways, little did I know that a job offer was there as well. Life is full surprises. 

So yeah. I am still learning about Scentsy, I am just a beginner. I admit that I am a bit nervous. Ya know? I’ve never done anything like this. As in try to run my own business kind of thing. But yeah, fingers crossed that I am successful, and that I can pitch in and help my partner keep things afloat. And who knows, maybe I may make friends through this business. 

Feel free to check out my website, in case your curious of what I may be doing. What I may be selling. You may find it interesting. Especially if you love things that smell nice, and that are safer to use than a burning candle. 

Pauline’s Scentsy Site
Anyways, my Advisor seems like a nice woman. She even said that in the future, once we get to know eachother more, that maybe her daughter could babysit mine sometime. Her daughter has all her certificates. So yeah, that would be awesome. Especially since this mama doesnt really get any time off. 

I am nervous, a tad bit overwhelmed, and kinda excited all at once. I hope that I do well with this job. I look forward to building new friendships, networking, and putting my skills that I have accumulated over the years to the test. Let’s see if those Leads workers were right, that my communication skills are better than I think they are.  

Next month, I plan to also take on becoming a Younique presenter. So yeah, the goal is to make more than I can get from OW per month. OW doesn’t give much of a top up. I’m sure I can make more than $78. Ya know? I’d be better off working. And that’s the perk with Scentsy and Younique, both jobs I can do from home, so I can still be there for my baby. 

Oh, another thing. I received an awesome email from the CAS worker and she wants to start that transition to get my eldest daughter to live here. Yaaaay!! Good news! So by the sounds of it, after all this court stuff is done, my eldest daughter could finally be coming back home to her mom. 

Things with my son may take longer though. However, I hope he knows that he is more than welcome to come visit anytime. We miss him. And I want him to know that he doesn’t have to worry, my partner won’t hurt me. I hope he is okay and doing well. All I want for him is to be healthy, safe and happy. 

Anyways, it’s getting late. Tomorrow my eldest daughter will be here. My partner works tomorrow, so yeah. I will need to find something for us ladies to do on a Saturday. 

Life’s been good for the most part. I mean yeah we stress about debts and bills, but I will remain positive. I can do this. I can help my partner and balance it all out. 

Wish me luck on my new endeavors and experiences, and adventures! I’m so excited. Life is good. 

Peace and love – Pooks

Stuff Like That

Hi again!

I think I will try to blog real quick tonight before heading to bed. 

Umm…

Today I got a call from the C.A.S worker, actually a voice message, but anyways she was saying that her and her supervisor were leaning more towards putting my eldest daughter in the care of my partner and myself. That’s excellent news!! 

However, she needs a criminal record check of my partner. He did go to the police station to get it done this evening, but I guess they close at 4pm. So yeah, he’ll have to try again another time. The sooner we can get that to C.A.S, the better. I believe him when he says his record is pretty clean. Nothing since he was a teen. So yeah, just need that for court, and I think we’ll be good to go. 

C.A.S does want to visit again, even though they came by not too long ago. But she’s thinking of scheduling a Friday…Which reminds me, in a couple of weeks, our weekend visits could be getting extended from Friday evening to Sunday evening. So this next C.A.S visit that is to be scheduled is so she can see my eldest daughter in our home, how she behaves, what we do, stuff like that. 

But yeah, when it comes to finally bringing my eldest daughter home for good, things are looking pretty bright. 

Things are still up in the air when it comes to my son. The C.A.S worker is concerned about him since he doesn’t want to visit neither myself or his father. 

So I asked her if he had his tablet that his father gave him for Christmas. She confirmed that. So I told her about the issues we (our sons father and I) had when it comes to video games. He’s like an addict when it comes to video games. If he can’t play his video games, he’ll get depressed and just want to sleep all day. 

I also told her that technology had been an issue after he witnessed his father assault me. It used to be movies, he’d watch Garfield over and over. Then he was introduced to videogames by his father. It’s like that’s how he shuts out the world. The trauma. He’s never really dealt with that traumatic experience, and he needs to in order to be able to move forward. So yeah, she wrote down some notes like all workers do, and said she’d forward that information to Vanier. I hope it helps. 

The reason he probably stopped visiting is because he witnessed my partner and I bicker about alcohol. He came home after celebrating his best friends birthday, and yeah, he was a bit tipsy. I got angry because I thought he came home hammered and my children were  over. It was all a misunderstanding. My man is a lightweight, and can’t handle drinking as much as he used to (before our relationship).

 Anyways, my son probably thinks my partner will hurt me like his father did, and no. I’ve said it many times, my partner refuses to even raise his voice with me. His patience and understanding has been amazing. I’m lucky to have him by my side through all this. 

By the way, a week or two ago my man had 2 beers after work. It gave him a headache, and he’s been avoiding alcohol since. So needless to say, I don’t think I have to worry about alcoholism. If he does drink, there’s a huge gap in between. That’s no alcoholic. I am so grateful he proved my fears wrong. 

Like I said before, regarding my son at Vanier, for all we know, my eldest son could be at Vanier for a year. Hopefully by the time he gets out, he’s more happy, confident, and not as scared of the world.

Yes, the world can be scary and violent. Heck, just watch the news.It’s made to induce fear. It’s all negative. But the world can be beautiful too. It just depends on your perspective and where you look. 

Other than that, I have contacted the nearby resource centre, and library, to inquire about mom and baby programs within the neighborhood. I think it’s time that my baby gets socialized, and quite honestly as amazing as this sounds for an introvert, I too need to be around people. Plus, I get bored, and I think my baby does too. So yeah, time to find fun things we could do together within the community. So far, I am thinking of attending 2 programs at the library. They start around the 21st. One is called Books for Babies, and the other is Story Time. So not only will we get out and mingle with others, my baby gets to learn more literacy. 
Other than that, the stress of owing debts is weighing us down a bit. With that being said, I am considering this online Younique presenter job more and more. I would be able to work from home, and my own hours. The only risk is that it’s paid by commission. So… if I take it on, I would have to hustle my ass. The starter kit costs $144 approximately. So not only will I have to make my money back, I would have to be damn good to be able to make more than I can get from OW. $300 per month…but plus what they cover for utilities…I’d have to make at least $700 -1000/ month. 

I guess I just need to believe I can do it. Even though my last sales job at Anvision , which was also paid commission, I didn’t do so shit hot. But than again, that was years ago. 

For all I know I could be good at it. I mean, people on Twitter think I’m an entrepreneur, or a social media marketer. I don’t even know what those entail. So if I’m doing something that seems along those lines, well la dee da! I’m a natural! I don’t even realize that that’s what I’m doing. Lol

Anyways, it’s getting late, and I should rest. I’m sure my baby has another busy day planned for me. Haha! 

Thanks for reading! Peace and love – Pooks 

“The realization that limitations are imaginary will make you strong and overpowering” 

– Stephen Richards