”I am sorry Pauline…but selfish is watching your children be hungry and homeless while spouting rubbish about being to good for a capitalist system and how you are a lofty artist….and then to be so irresponsible as to bring another one into the mess YOU created…not the men in your life who by the way YOU chose….not the system which everyone has to learn to survive in….but YOU…you are accountable to your children for what you are doing…you are making the decisions that impact on them…but you want to blame everyone else and have the Public pay for them…you are using your children to make people feel sorry for you while you do NOTHING to support them….NOTHING…and never have….when Iwent to england I also sent you and ERic hundreds of pounds of money…MONEY I WORKED FOR….who have you ever given money to…..who have you gone to work for….you need to look in the mirror pauline and have an honest discussion with yourself…..you are not worse than me…but you are not better either…all of us just want to survive and get on with it….I have made lots of mistakes and I have had friends and family give me a good kick up the backside whan I needed it…well this is yours now and I hope it shakes you awake.
Someone had to say this to you Pauline…hope it helps
…only an enemy would be a yes man and always agree with you while you and your family sink under the mud….a true friend takes the risk of telling you what you need to hear…if i didn’t think you were worth it I wouldn’t have tried , risking you doing one of your character assasinations on line. Only a coward bullies a person by slandering them online while refusing an honest dialogue directly with them.
You will never learn if you don’t gain some humility. Humility is the beginning of wisdom. Start by owning your responsibility in this mess.
So after I blocked this woman on Facebook, she emails me. The above is what she sent. Ya know. I am getting sick of this shit.
“Selfish is watching your children be hungry and homeless.”
Wow. My kids are eating better since we left Derek. Heck, we aren’t scavenging to make a single meal! With Derek it was getting to the point where we were eating chicken hearts for dinner for crying out loud! Because it was cheap, and my ex partner only thought of himself. Buying hunting traps. Buying a water raft for his outdoor adventures, and beer! Ya know?? While his pregnant girlfriend and dependants starve. Now my kids eat 3 times a day plus snacks here at the shelter. So no, they are not starving. My eldest daughter actually gained weight since we left.
I feel like this bitch is trying to make ME feel ashamed for leaving a toxic relationship. Yeah, we currently live in a shelter, which in fact C.A.S brought us to. If they think that is best for us for the time being, then I will trust thier decision.
I never did say that I am “too good” for the Capitalist system. Matter of fact, being an indigenous woman, I’m not really welcome in the system. Just saying. But I don’t expect a white person to understand the amount of prejudice a person of Colour experiences. However I do share my opinion, and how I feel about it.
Often Indigenous people have to create thier own jobs. Hence my efforts to actually do something I love, rather than do the norm.
It drove me nuts when my ex partner tried to lecture my eldest daughter with this “be like me” bullshit. Ya know, why? He hates his fuckin job. He’s miserable and drinks his sorrows away. That’s not the life I want my children to live! Sure that shit is expected by society, but I want my children to believe that the norm isn’t the only option. I want them to believe they can create the life they want. And as hard as it is for me as an artist, I will try my best to be that example. Wither I succeed or not, I will do what I love. I will do what I know in my heart that I was born to do.
As for being so “irresponsible ” for bringing another child into this “mess”. Wow. It would have been irresponsible of me to stay in a toxic relationship pretending things are fine when thier not, and having my children be raised by unhappy parents. Fuck that!
Irresponsible is dropping all responsibility of my children, leaving them behind with a pedophile like she did. Oh, just because life got too hard. And I’m selfish? Your children have every right to be angry with you! You gave up on them. So don’t even think you can tell me how to parent, especially since you weren’t even there for your own!
I am accountable for my actions. Yeah I fucked up and chose losers to be father’s. One includes her son. Lesson learned. I’ll pick up the fuckin slack as I always do.
As for being pissed about my Go Fund Me page. That sounds like jealousy. It takes a lot of courage and humility to ask publicly for help. So don’t tell me I don’t know anything about humility. Heck, I get slammed online just asking for items on local FB pages because there’s women, like Rose, that think they have a say wither I am deserving or not.
I actually get kudos from my workers and other women for thinking of a Go Fund Me page. I’m told that that is brilliant, to be able to come up with that as a solution because it’s not something they would have thought of.
Sorry you were and are to cowardly to ask people for help yourself when you needed it. That isn’t my problem. But to shit down my throat for asking for help, wow. Low.
Or maybe it’s your white privilege (Lil Miss I live in the U.K) that’s got you so arrogant and prideful.
Fuckin telling me to get a job. Haha! I talked to other moms in the shelter. They laughed too. A pregnant woman is most not likely to be hired here, nor will they qualify for maternity leave. Hence why most mothers wait until thier child is 2 years old and old enough for daycare. Smh.
“Character assasinations”, haha! That’s hilarious. This is only my response to your behavior. As I tell everyone, if you don’t want my “character assassination ” to happen to you, then don’t be a negative in my life. Otherwise it will be fuel for my venting. Simple. Capiche? Some people can’t wrap thier heads around that. I guess she must be one.
P.S. responding to your bullshit is not cowardly. It is a response to something you started. Deal with it.
Have a nice day 😊😊😊
Peace and love – Pooks